this just happens to be my solice.
it happens to be my heart.

time can not take this away,
like you killed all i am.
your bleeding soul still is my way,
my way of cutting myself out.
its not all there, it still ties around,
and around and around your heartbeat gasping for air.
you want this, you want to see black.
poisoning pure water in your steps.
i come to you with all i am.
i claimed me for you to have all i mourn for,
the sickness will never end.
you want a smile?
you want a fucking smile in your sea of regret,
i was never there.
im still just a motionless wave of empty sorrow.
to seal all my emotions so you can just hide away.
i know your alone.
you did this.
i am afraid.
shame is my ending.
caring is made of thorns.
and deceit is your fucking full bloom.
i polish the glare of your still reflection.
so open my mind and take out your lies.
the lies ive been living since the birth of my inner-destruction
just empty all i am, because i was always just nothing.
your little nothing to hold on to for so long.
let me go.
let me go for me.
let me go.
i have a death to seek alone without the greens of your eyes.